Friday, December 25, 2009
10-25-09 and 10-30-09
Monday, December 21, 2009
Merry Christmas 2009
I just wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! I missed sending out cards last year for Christmas and this year isn't working either! So I am doing them via email-Sorry! I would love to write a nice Christmas letter but I don't know what to write. Like many of you, this year has been pretty full of trials for my family. One thing I can take from this year is that Heavenly Father knows what our futures hold and wants what is best for us-even if we don't see it at the time! Know that it will all work out! I am so grateful for my testimony and for the hope of a better future! I have gotten to know and love myself again and I know that I can be strong and get through whatever life throws at me! I can do it and I am constantly trying make the decision to be optimistic. Family and friends are very important and I'm so glad I have the very best out there! My girls are such amazing daughters and every day I remember what a blessing they are in my life! I am so grateful for them! Pure sunshine! Thanks for all the support, love and prayers!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Update...
So just an update on everything I can think of right now... We are still in Syracuse. When we sell our house (in Syracuse), the girls and I will kick out our renters (in SLC) and move back into our old townhouse (in SLC.) Our divorce should be final next month (January.) I really, really, really need a job with benefits so if anyone knows of any openings...please let me know! I really like doing secretary work, office work like filing, faxing, organizing, etc. Maybe a receptionist, secretary or in office support. Love it! I am a quick learner. The only thing I can't say yes to without high doses of medication are call centers and sales-I'm terrible at both! I really worry about my girls. They are having such a hard time (only with me though apparently!) I'm still out of commission since my bilateral foot surgery and they have Grandma T and Papa Howie here helping. They aren't seeing their dad because he's deployed-he'll be back on the 24th. There is so much change in the air. Shawn will not be living with the girls, he's probably not going to be around much. When we sell the house, we'll be moving, Grandma T & Papa Howie will go back home, new school, new schedule, I will be working and they will be in daycare (they are used to having me 24/7!) Karah is still really upset about Evan and Kaitlyn and she gives me a thumbs down to me getting a job. It's sad to see how much everything is affecting her. Her personality is changing-both girls really insecure-what can I do? I think I need to find some counseling for her/them. It would be nice to get everything settled at the new place and then get a job when the girls are more stable but I don't know that I'll have that luxury. I need to take what I can get. They are getting tons of love but I know they can feel something is just not right! All I can do is be positive and give plenty of cuddles and quality time! Any other ideas? I will need to find child care so if you have any recommendations... I will be living in SL (by downtown) so hopefully I can find a job and day care close by. Am I being too picky? I know people that have been trying for jobs for over a year and I am expecting to be employed soon-I don't know what to say... please?
Friday, December 11, 2009
Big Changes-This is going to take some getting used to!
I know this is out of order but I needed to share my day on Thursday, December 9th. See these beautiful blonde curls?
I am not good with change-or with doing hair so this is going to take a while to get used to but it’s just hair and they are still my beautiful girls-I love them! I am now in need of some hats and headbands though because elastics and even tiny clips will not stay in for more that a split second! Some hats make her look like a chemo patient though and I don't really feel good about that! I think we should dye it pink! Get her some tatoos, black leather clothes... Just kidding! I will definitely be buying very girly clothes for a while though!
I think Karah will hear about this for years to come-I still hear about it from my sister (I did the same thing when I was little…oops-sorry Ash. If it makes you feel better, Ash, I also took care of my own hair the next day and I was so embarrassed at how bad I looked! I still remember how embarrassed I felt-right after my mom took me to Homemaking and I remember spending the whole time in the nursery under a chair hiding!)


